Forgive my absence.
So she's here. And she amazing. And again like Mimi, we thought she would be a he because the need it so great to find homes for little boys. But God has other plans and she is here with us and settling in.
And I can't and won't say much more than that about the situation.
As for me, my emotions are reeling. And none like I expected.
The need for a support system is HUGE in this process, probably even more so than international adoption. The house is a mess. I've forgotten appointments. Dinner and taking a shower seem like distant memories. I'm missing my camera. I reached out and a dear (online) mom friend, and she said, pretend you just had a baby. What would your expectations for your life and yourself be? What would you expect of yourself if you just had a baby 4 days ago? It made it make all sorts of sense in my mind and more importantly my heart. Okay, I need to give myself more time and grace. I'm doing that.
The transition has gone as well as expected. Don't get me wrong. It hasn't gone great, just as well as could be expected. Frankly we didn't expect it to go great. You know, pray for the best and prepare for the worst. Something like that. And we're all learning not just about each other but also about the amazing grace of the Lord in the process.
The kiddos are processing too. The reality of how this affects the day-to-day life has hit them. All are doing okay. Liv has stepped up to the plate like she was born to do this. Actually I think she was! Mimi is having a tougher time. I'm giving her extra snuggles and mom time. Some are adjusting better than others and honestly it's the unknown that hard to adjust to for all.
Livy's holding down the fort this evening and Papa's taking me out of a surprise date this evening that starts with a pedicure at a spa! Just thinking about it literally makes me want to cry.
I need it.
We need it.