... or at least I think so but what do I know?!
Are you all Vietnam-ed out? I've been posting daily about our trip because my heart is so full of thoughts, transformations and visions. I don't want to forget a single moment that went by, and there's still so much to cover. So if you are all Vietnam-ed out, sorry but there is more to come. I'll finish the trip here on the blog until the last day is done. Then push print and make a book for Livy to remember the most awesome senior grad trip ever.
But today I thought I'd take a break from the trip and say happy birthday to myself. Yeppers, it's my birthday today! Sometime after turning 40, my birthdays stopped making me giddy. Up until my mid-forties, I really did enjoy my birthday and even getting older! But then something I can't quite put my finger on happened. Maybe it's that part when one realizes that you've likely lived more than half your life and are on the downhill stretch. I enjoy the part of ageing where I know how smart I'm not and it's okay to rely on other people and okay to not know everything. I like the part of getting older where I learn what's really important and what's really not. I wish I could say that I've accepted getting older, but that part about being on the downhill stretch, that part is bitter and one that I'm still getting used to. There's so much more that I want to do and see and experience.
This last year I've seen my vision change. I've seen my body start to creak in ways that it never creaked before. I've heard phrases come out of my mouth that are not mine, but my parents alone. speaking of our parents, they've started to have encounter some health issues that are inevitable with age. My own wrinkles are starting to develop, and even though I've always been premature grey, without a magic box of hair color, way way more grey than I'm comfortable with. But all in all, it's okay. I'm trying to remember to use all these things as sweet reminders of the abundant blessings I've been bestowed with; a truly happy life with so so many things to be thankful for. and that's not at all bitter. That's the stuff of a very sweet life indeed.
And because it's my birthday and my blog, I'm I'm particularly prone to bunny trails with no warning... I'm posting some excerpts from my very favorite movies. To be honest, my favorite movies of all time change. Some stay the same. Some are always on the short list. I'm fickle that way. But here is the list as it stands now.